Merry New Year!!

I bid a very Prosperous, Lovely, Healthy, Insightful, Fantabulous, Glamorous New Year to All!

Best Monthsary so far

We are six months now! December 28 turned into a very memorable month celebration for us. Bonn went to San Pablo last 27 December night and spent the weekend there. We already talked of the plan for the 28th, our 6th month. He said he wanted to go to Nagcarlan to see the Underground Cemetery and to Majayjay to see the

falls; so we did. When we got there, the place was closed! So we took somee photo of it and were left with no choice but to leave. So we went to Liliw, pass to Magdalena and to Majayjay town proper. Since it was our first time to go there, we didn't know what to jeepney to ride. We found we could rent the jeepney from the town proper to get us to the falls; it would cost around 400 pesos. And since it was too expensive for the 2 of us to rent the whole jeepney, we rode a trike and rented it for 150 pesos; at least we knew how to go there the next time we would bring friends with us. It was a quite long trip but it was all worth it. When we got into the place, we were in awe! The water was so clear you could almost drink it. It was cold that you could literally put your cola in it to make it almost ice-clod. The falls was in its majestic display. It was so white while it fell into the pool of water. That pool where water fell was very inviting; if only I brought spare cloth with me, I could have jumped into it. We took photos of the place; there were people camping at the moment. We enjoyed the scenery nd the serenity it brought us. Haaay, I couldn't wait to come back there. We said we'd be going with our friends for a camping next time. Around 3 in the pm, we decided to go up and waited for a jeepney that brought us into the town proper.

The jeep arrived around quarter to 5 that afternoon. The place was so cold and we were stuck there for about 2 hours or so. We couldn't stand the temperature anymore; so we diverted our attention so as not to feel the coldness. We tried dancing, taking photo, smoking, teasing each other (him teasing me most of the time,) smoking, singing, texting our friends and we even tried to eat hot noodles, but it was unfortunate the cook of the cafeteria was not there, ha! I almost insisted on cooking, it was really cold in that place! And since there was nothing we could do about it, we just said "Isipin natin wala naman nito sa Manila, i-enjoy nalang natin" haha!

We arrived at San Pablo around 730 in the pm; just in time for dinner. I was really hungry that day and he noticed it. I normally eat less than he did but that day, that night after the road trip, I ate more haha. After dinner, we watched DVD, Project Catwalk. We enjoyed the night as we did the day. It was so ecstatic and lovely and heart-felt. I told him that it was the best month-sary...so far; because there would be more month-celebration for us to come.

Soft to Callous Skin...Numb, Cold, Hard, Tough

I am not pretty sure why am I like this way. When you care to people so much and after all your effort have been wasted, you end up being hurt. Eventually you learn to gurad yourself from the pain. You see, it' like a soft skin turning into callous; if you repeatedly rub your soft skin, it feels pain over and over, but at the same time it is calling for re-inforcement. Later on, upon continuous rubbing, it grows harder, a callous, so that when you use it the next time it does not feel pain anymore.

Many times, so many times, I just want to be number and colder and harder and tougher than what I am right now; BTW I already am since time immemorial. You'll grow numb if you're continuously feeling or experiencing that same thing over and over again; if you do, you'll be cold and you won't realize you are already until someone tells you; then you'll be harder on them, not knowing you're already hurting them since you are numb and cold already; eventually, they'll think your tough. But I also am thinking, what will I become if I grew this way, or how many people will be hurt around me. My close friends, who really know me, see me, as cold-aloof-snob-hard-to-approach guy already to those I don't really know. Come on! What an iceburg will I be if I continue being this way. I am thinking why am I like this; perhaps I dont want to be hurt anymore that is why I'm guarding myself; perhaps I'm annoyed; perhaps it gives me liberty to do anything I want without caring what anyone will say; perhaps there is an image I am sculpting for myself I will be using in the future, perhaps...

But one thing is for sure, I dont like to be this way to the people I love and care about.

Undergoing MyBlogLog Verification

No to vacation hang-over!

Christmas vacation hang-over... I hope not to have one

Thinking right now, I have so many things to do when I go back on 5 Jan. Lots of assignments in school, lots of journals to read and study, lots of lessons to lecture, haaay...

For now, I'm gonna enjoy the vacation as much as I could.

Undergoing MyBlogLog Verification

New York, New York... Gossip Girl

Gossi Girl...what's with this series? Most are hooked-up with it. Well, I myself love to watch series films... I want to have continuity. But for those people who aren't really watching these kind of stuff, what made them do Gossp Girl?

Many had their reason for wtching this but mine was the love of the place, Manhattan, NY. The story revolves on the elite socialites of Manhattan's upper-east siders. I don't know but there was really something in NY, NY. I remembered when I went there, I was in awe and admiration. All my life I wanted to set foot in NY, and there I did! I actually saw the fifth avenue where the Waldrof shop was located; the steps where B and the rest of the bees were sitting during lunch; St. Patrick's Cathedral; even the Central Park where prince Nate was jogging! *sigh* New York, New York.

When I was there, I didn't want to go back here in the Philippines; I already wanted to live there. And so I promised myselfn I would be going back there, perhaps establish my life there. Who knew, I might meet GG, haha!

xoxo

Awww, I missed them...

Finally I'm home. Something changed. There was already a grocery store built just beside my old highschool; Traffic flow became worse; My grandmother bought a videoke CD; most of the branches of the Mango tree in the plaza was cut and a library was built! I missed this hometown. Progress was very subtle and the town pretty much bored me, still, I missed the place.

Hmm, when arrived home yesterday, I wasn't really surprised to see lots of foods in the house. My grandmoter had a habit of cooking and buying loads of foods whenever we came home. She cooked as if the whole street was going to eat! That was not a joke! Bongang bonga kung magluto; akala mo araw-araw fiesta! And of course, since we could not eat those all, most of the foods were given to our neighbors. I missed Inay; it's what we call her, although most of the times we tease her by calling her Donya.

I also hang-out yesterday with my sisters. We went out, catch-up with our lives, bought cake and ate a lot. Speaking of that cake, or should I say cakes, Pola and I were arguing which cake should be bought; she wanted black forrest and I wanted the Rainow cake. We went on asking the lady in the counter which is better. Since we were torn on which cake should we bought, we ended up buying both; petit sizes so we could taste both. It so happened that Pola wanted te taste of the Raonbow cake, ha! I told her it was going to be delicious.

When we arrived home, we watched Brothers and Sisters series but paused it for an hour becasue thet attended the Rooster's Mass. Brother's and Sisters made me feel I was a part of a big family. Maybe this had been one of my frustrations; an intact, big family. We were basically a small family compared to my second cousins; my grandmom, mom, my aunt (her sister,) two sisters and two girl cousins. I always liked to have a family get together, big family, including the extended family. Although some were annoying, but they were still part of the family. There were fights but there were still discussion for understanding and forgiveness. Then there were happy occassion but still more celebratory moments to look forward to. That was why I liked attending weddings, Christening, birthdays and birthday parties and every year, summer swimming, Christmas, New Year...these were the only events we could all be together, the whole family, including the extended ones; it made us big, it made me feel happy.

Christmas Chrsitmas

It's Christmas! 3 days from now. I already did my Christmas shopping together with my boyfriend. There were also lots of Christmas party invites, but unfortunately I wasn't able to come. But hey, I did go to at least one; the Cashmere Chrsitmas party. So many things happened that day before the party, including a fight with Bonn. I really cried that day. But before the day ended, we had a talk to discuss the issues and we're now in terms better than before. I also had my nails done, nail art! Although my boyfriend didn't like it, I enjoyed wearing it for at least two days. Then finally last night, I changed the color African plum, almost black. I will be wearing it until Christmas.


Tomorrow, very early in the morning, I will be leaving to San Pablo and spend Christmas and New year there. I hope there won't be any line in the terminal tomorrow. I couldn't wait to come home!

Conio-Mandments...ka-stress!

Last night on my way home, I was listening to Magic 89.9, Night out With the Boys. They were talking about the guidelines on how to be "conio." So, they came-up with the Conio-Mandments. I didn't lsten to all because I got tired but here are some:

Fist, thou shall make gamit "make + pandiwa"

For example, can you please make pasa the truffles.

(kelangan talaga mae pasa? di ba pwedeng pass nalang? ----conio nga e! ano ba, bakit kasi paki-elam ako!)



Second, thou shall make gamit "e, 'no, diba" in a sentence, as many times as possible, no matter where you put it and how incomprehensible it will be

Example, Kasi diba I wasn't able to attend the party e, pero you dont worry 'no,...

(Galing naman! napagsamaama ang 'no, diba, e sa isang linya! no wonder why I the sentence construction was vague)



Third, thou shall make gamit "so + panlarawan"

Example, Grabe, this place is so mabaho!
Why is it so nakakadiri naman here?!

(Grabe, you are so maarte, lam mo yun? pwede naman sabihin so stinky. hmmm, siguro di nya alam english ng mabaho ano? ...acceptable in that case. kaya regaluhan kita teh ng dictionary, basahin mo, try lang teh.)



Fourth, Thou shall make gamit "dude-pare" if you're a guy

Example, Dude-pare you're mabagal naman o, we're late.

(lul! dude-pare dude-pare ka pa dyan! if I know type mo yung dude-pare mo!)



Fifth, thou shall make gamit "I know right" in a sentence

Example, My hair dress is so maganda, I know right.?.

(pwede ba? di ko tuloy ma-quantify kung anong type ng sentence mo! What do you mean "I know right" di ka ba sure kung alam mo kung ano man yung nalalaman mo o talagang di ka lang sure sa mga pinagsasabi mo? ka-stress! a teh!)



Sixth, thou shall make gamit plural noun

Example, Yaya, let's go to the bank na, I hve many peras to deposit.

(Kala ko ba you have many "peras"? Bakit mukang di ka nakapagenroll ng basic english nung elementary?)


Well guys, it's up to you wether to use these if you want to be one of them. Ka-stress sila, nawindang ako!

It's getting well

I did get my starbucks planner! This time, it's already mine.

Sittie and I also posed for Bonn assignment in his phtography training. The theme/subject was a portrait of people in their environment. So took a photo of Sittie and me in the laboratory. I hope he had good shots last night.

Then I am about to finish checking papers and finally computing their grades. I ally hope all will pass the course.

My assignments in grad school are also almost done; just need a little polishing.

I do wish it's Christmas break already. Magpapahinga talaga ako ng bongang bonga!

The "Will Be's" Today

It's a gloomy Friday today.

I have been busy this past few days. So many work to do (remeber the list of things I told you?) those are the things. I am somehow relieved because I was able to finish many of those things. Now, what I still need to do is to start correcting my student's papers and compute their grades. I believe next week, my prof in Advance Cell and Mol Bio will be sending us journal as a take home task...again. So, yeah, I guess better do things fast before it all start to pile-up again.

Hmmm...today, I will be getting my new fone (cross fingers.) My aunt told me she'd be giving me new one; we're going to meet lunch time at her office. 'Good thing is, she's just 2 blocks away from where I'm teaching.

What else, oh, I will also be getting a copy of the 12th episode of Gossip Girl 2 from one of my colleagues; and, I'm only 5 stickers away from geeting my second Starbucks Planner. I alread commissioned the Barista to reserve me the red one because I pretty sure I'll be done with the stickers beofre this day ends. Btw, I gave the first one to Bonn, my boyfriend, as a gift when he passed the licensure exam for teachers.

So far, everything is good; I hope all will stay this way...

KABA

Have you ever felt a jolt of fear while doing something that is totally not frigthening at all? Or while walking on your way home or school, suddenly kinabahan ka, out of no where, with no reason para kabahan?

These circumstances happened to me more often than not. Sa paulit-ulit na na nangyayari sakin'to, I have learned that something is going to happen; when I felt nervous all of a sudden, without any reason to, something unusual is about to happen. I will either have a "good nervous" or "bad nervous" feeling. The day I was held-up, I felt nervous; The day I received a fone call from DOST, I sensed it. But last night was one of the strongest.

Since last Thursday, I already had a jolt, just a jolt, of nervy, uneasy feeling. Then it automatically dawned to me that this means something, and so I prayed one Our Father. The following day, it reccured; so I prayed again. Then last night, it came back, and it came back big. It wasn't like those I felt last week; it's different. I'm with Bonn, Zico and Bobby. Suddenly while we're chatting, I had this very, very, very uneasy feeling to the point that my body is having tremors already; literal tremors, I was shaky. So I told Bonn, just in whispers. He asked me what's it all about, pero kahit ako 'di ko rin alam. The moment I had that feeling last night, I offered a prayer. It's a pretty powerful tool. I learned it from my mentor. Anyway, my boyfriend offered that I'd stay in his place last night because of this. At first I said no, but then I was really scared, still shaky-scared, and so I stayed at Bonn's place.

Kagabi while already in bed, naiisip ko na para naman akong may sira ng ulo nito; natatakot sa walang dahilan? I mean, I felt scared, but why? I don't know. What I'm certain of is that whenever I have this feeling, it's trying to forewarn me of something. I just really prayed that whatever it is I felt last night won't happen because it's going to be pretty unpleasant, hugely unpleasant.

'Have to catch up...it's piling-up, it's piling-up!

I so wish it's still vacation! Ang dami kong gagawin but I'm still not in the mood to do any of it. I have to:

• Finish the research proposal in Analytical Microbiology
• Make a ppt report on filarial worms for Advanced Medical Parasitology
• Tapos 'am going to check the quizzes, execises and laboratory reports of my students
• Then finalize the final exam in Inorganic/Organic Chem
• Have the quarterly inventory of the equipment in 4 laboratories
• Not to mention the inventory of equipment and apparatus in the Simulated Hospital (from the reception area, ER, OR, DR, ICU...)
• After the exams, computation of grades...mamomroblema na naman ako sa mga babagsak, haay..
• Then I also have to buy new mobile fone, due to a recent unfortunate event

Sana bumalik na yung energy ko to do these all T_T